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Wednesday, April 27, 2005

Being Attentive to Spiders and the Breeze

I’ve been reading The Artist’s Way: A Spiritual Path to Higher Creativity by Julia Cameron. I love this book. Here’s a quote I want to share from page 53:
The quality of life is in proportion, always, to the capacity for delight. The capacity for delight is the gift of paying attention.

It’s amazing how much of life passes us by without our knowing it. Recently, I’ve started doing what Cameron calls “Morning Pages.” Upon waking, I pull out my binder and write three pages. Well, they are actually half-pages produced by the paper cutter, but it works for me. The content of these pages is more of a “stream of consciousness” approach. That means writing whatever comes to mind. In actuality, there is no “wrong” way to do morning pages. It is really a form of meditation. It helps us to turn off the analytical left brain for a while and to turn on the perceptive right brain. (I’m sure there are many who would say I don’t need this, but I’m doing it anyway.)

There’s something to be said for nurturing one’s inner child. Children and adults approach the world so differently. I remember being with a friend of mine and her small daughter several years ago. Unbeknownst to her mother, the child discovered a small spider on the playset. Her eyes grew large as she became more and more intrigued. She reached out to touch it. “No, no, no,” I said. “You don’t want to accidentally squish it.” At that, her mother turned to see what was going on. “What are you doing?” she asked her daughter. Not thinking, I replied, “We’ve found a spider.” I wasn’t ready for the reaction. The mother screamed and grabbed the child. The little girl, now having learned the appropriate response to spiders, began to wail and cry. No longer was the spider fascinating. Now it was terrifying.

Adult anxieties of the world are understandable and often wise. I would not suggest tickling a wild Tarantula’s belly. Sometimes, actions bring nasty consequences. But in the midst of our caution, we have to be careful not to let life pass us by. We need to notice the spider. We need to feel the breeze for no other reason than because it is there. We need to notice the coffee as it warms us from the inside. We need to pay attention. It makes all the difference in the world.

Monday, April 25, 2005

See, Math Really Is Hard

From a test I just took:

Your brain:
120% interpersonal,
180% visual,
80% verbal, and
20% mathematical!


Congratulations on being 400% smart! Actually, on my test, everyone is. The above score breaks down what kind of thinking you most enjoy doing. A score above 100% means you use that kind of thinking more than average, and a score below 100% means you use it less. It says nothing about how good you are at any one, just how interested you are in each, relatively. A substantial difference in scores between two people means, conclusively, that they are different kinds of thinkers.

Matching Summary: Each of us has different tastes. Still, I offer the following advice, which I think is obvious:



  1. Don't date someone if your interpersonal percentages differ by more than 80%.
  2. Don't be friends with someone if your verbal percentages differ by more than 100%.
  3. Don't have sex with someone if their math percentage is over 200%.

My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:
You scored higher than 94% on interpersonal
You scored higher than 92% on visual
You scored higher than 75% on verbal
You scored higher than 9% on mathematical

Link: The 4-Variable IQ Test written by chriscoyne on Ok Cupid

Saturday, April 23, 2005

I've Got My Eyes on You

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Just a bit of prep/practice sketching for the hopefully upcoming art class. I feel rusty. It's amazing how much better drawings look once they've been tightened by the reducing process.

I received good news regarding the art class today. So far, there are now four people interested. One more and we're good to start. I'm starting to get pretty pumped. Time to start concocting lesson plans.

I've got more posters going up, and I've asked Tim to help pass the word around in Rockford. I think I'll have to contact others up there as well and ask them to look for possibilities.

I discovered tonight that if you are making instant mashed potatoes, it is best not to start to mix in the potato packet, start stiring and then get distracted before finishing. Apparently, if the stirring motion is not continued, it all turns to soup.

Wednesday, April 20, 2005

Ships Passing in the Night

I've decided to start (yet another) blog. This one is to post a story that I wrote some time back. It's called Ships Passing in the Night. Okay, it's not the best title, but the story itself isn't that bad. I think this is a good way to show off my writing. Besides, I've had so much fun re-designing this blog that I wanted to do it again.

Tuesday, April 19, 2005

New Title and Background Graphics

Ain't they just the grooviest?

Whack Your Boss dot Com

I just received this in an e-mail. Check out Whack Your Boss. Don't forget to click on the Bush poster.

Monday, April 18, 2005

I'm Going to Teach Art

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I've decided to put out flyers. My goal is to pick up 20 steady students. I hope that's not unrealistic. I've been told that my fee of $10/wk is too low, but I want the art classes to be financially accessible. Besides, it's not like I'm an "established" artist who can charge out the wazoo. (Not that I would even if I could.)

I talked with Tim last night and he gave me the heads-up on submitting to an independently published anthology focusing on the horror genre. The setting itself sounds very doable for me. Who knows, maybe I can eventually meet the director and do some art for him. Right now, it is all up in the air. But, I took a step in that direction by sending a short story proposal. So, I feel momentarily accomplished.

Can you tell I'm totally on an art kick?

I'm Back

I just got back in from seeing Christina and Jacob last night. That was apparently just what I needed to unwind. I feel like I'm ready to get back in the saddle again today.

Jacob's 9th birthday party was at Skank Skates. He and his friends had a ball with their bikes and scooters. As I recall, none of them actually used a skateboard for any extended period of time. But they had fun taking other wheeled instuments up the hills. It turned out that there was an art show next door, so that made me happy. Not all the pieces were all that good, but there were a few that were outstanding. Such is to be expected though. It's really good to bounce into that alternative culture every once in a while.

We went to Christina's mom and dad's for lunch on Sunday. Her sister and Roger were there (who is apparently in the dog house). Spaghetti with meatballs and garlic bread. It was very good. Afterward we had an orange-something-or-other cake that was yummy too. Unfortuanately, I couldn't finish it all.

Well, today at 1pm, I have my comparative religions class. I need to get everything ready for that.

Although today is my scheduled "day off" for the week and I should do nothing work related today, I think I'll be doing plenty tonight and try to take some time off later in the week.

Friday, April 15, 2005

Meet Captain Happy!

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Meet my friend's brother's dog. Ain't he cute?

Today, I'm going down to see Christina and Jacob. It was his birthday yesterday (the big "oh-nine"). He doesn't know I'm coming down yet. Hopefully, it is a good surprise. I plan to be on my way back on Sunday.

Speaking of birthdays, today is my mom's. I already called her and sang "Happy Birthday" to her. She's outside enjoying the day and working with her flowers.

I'm finally unwinding. It really started last night. Today I feel relatively relaxed. I'm in that in-between stage. And to think, it has only taken me five days to get here.

I'm considering starting to teach drawing on the side. Of course, I don't have "credentials," but I'd mention that up front. I was thinking of charging $10 per week, with class meeting two times for two-hour sessions. I would need a minimum of five people interested to start up. There are some things I can do, and others that I cannot. I'll just have to stick with what I can do.

Wednesday, April 13, 2005

Cross-Posting

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I had to do it. This is actually for Free Agency, but I just finished it and wanted to post it here too. This took 4 1/2 hours. Can you believe it? I'm exhausted.

Tuesday, April 12, 2005

It's Apparently "Art Day"

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Yes, I've spent all day working on art. I did this for Free Agency. It took alot longer than I expected. The original sketch took about a half-hour. (I did that some time back.) The digital work has taken me about 5 hours or so. But, the idea today is to draw and relax, not feel like I'm trying to beat a clock. (That is not easy for me, btw.)

"Green-Eyed Monster"

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My mom used to call me the "green-eyed monster" because I had a strong jealous streak in me. When it comes to art, that streak really comes out. How often do I say, "Gee, I wish I could do that." Well, after coming across Grant Gould's tutorial, I have something to work with in order to better myself.

But what shall I draw? I know: me!

It's a self portrait. I haven't done one in years, and it's easy to find a model (though less easy to get him to sit still). Anyway, I thought I'd try to capture the "green-eyed monster" within that has never really gone away (and I doubt ever will), for which I am oddly thankful. That little beast within has pushed me beyond my limits at times driving me to excell in ways I didn't know that I could.

It's a strange feeling when I produce a work of art. I'm never truly happy with the final product, and yet at the same time proud of the work that I have done. Often people tell me they like my work, but something deep inside me says "But it's not what I envisioned." I think that's why it's difficult for me to be happy with what the work "is." In my own mind's eye, I see what "could have been." Maybe I need to learn that "what could have been" isn't the same as "what is meant to be."

Hmmm... Perhaps that's something for me to meditate on during my vacation.

Monday, April 11, 2005

Vacation

Ahhh...It's about time. I'm starting vacation today, and it is amazing how much I can feel the tension in my body just sitting here. I figure it will take me until probably Wed or Thurs to unwind and feel "normal."

Last night was good. I decided to work on the computer and play with artwork. Grant Gould put up this tutorial and I've been playing with the steps. I'll post my pic when I finish it. That tutorial has been amazing help to me.

Warning: My pic isn't turning out very good, but this whole approach is new to me and I've got to start somewhere. That means you must endure. Bwa haa haa.

Friday, April 08, 2005

Yin-Yang and Lunch

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Yesterday, I went to the cemetery for lunch to eat my Subway Steak-n-Cheese. It was very peaceful. There is a mausoleum there that has bushes growing in front of it. The bushes are starting to get that green look, but not so much that I couldn’t see the intricate interweaving of the various branches. The sun was high in the sky and poured out this beautiful glow onto the stonework and turf.

The whole scene was so moving that I found I actually had to remind myself that I’m sitting in the middle of death. It was, after all, a graveyard. These were all real people at one time. As I looked at a row of headstones, I saw, “father,” “mother,” “daughter,” “daughter,” “daughter.” A family. The earliest death around 1913. The latest around 1957. They reminded me that death is a power that cannot be denied.

Yet, thanks to the arrival of spring, I was also sitting in the middle of newly emerging life. New buds. Singing birds. It was as if even the power of death could not keep life away. While the reality of death could not be dismissed, the power of life also would not be denied.

It made me wonder, to what extent do they make each other complete? What is life without death and death without life? It truly is an awe-inspiring and mysterious universe that we live in. It is good to be a part of it.

Thursday, April 07, 2005

Stress

I'm up right now because I cannot sleep.

The big issue: the congregation I'm working with had hoped for a grant, but it did not come through. It was tough news for the congregation to hear, and that makes the future uncertain.

Meanwhile, I'm applying for some side-work as a minor web designer. I emphasize "minor" here because my skills are all self-taught. I'm limited to basic HTML and a bit of graphics work. But I'm not looking for a top o' the line position. Basic freelance work will do.

Although I'm not up by choice, I admit that I do like the sound of the rain outside. I've opened the window a bit to let the breeze in. Very calming.

Tuesday, April 05, 2005

A Sporting Faith

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It was a good game, though I'd hoped it would turn out differently. Despite being down by about 13 at the half, we came back to tie it with two minutes left. Unfortunately, we just couldn't quite pull it off.

I've heard it said that sports is a "religion" in America. Perhaps that is true, but I think it is an over-exaggerated statement. I suspect that for those who want to split off the "spiritual" from the "material" it may be more of an issue than for those of us who find spiritual depth in the tangibles of everyday life.

A recent conversation has spurred me to ask myself the following question (which, btw, assumes that I were not actually leading a church service): If a really big game (such as the Super Bowl or NCAA championship)were playing during the time of the church service, would I stay home to watch the game? My answer is unabashadly "yes." What if it were an Easter service? My answer is still "yes." (Surprised yet?) Why? It seems to me that "worship" in the divine sense is less about observance of religious high and holy days and more about real life. And for me, sometimes, sports is more about "real life" than pipe organs.

I suspect that I'm not the only Christian leader in history to think this way. Indeed, I recall what St. Paul said to the Romans who were trying to figure out what it meant to be "Christian" for them in their time: "One person considers one day more important thatn another, while another person considers all days alike. Let everyone be fully persuaded in his own mind. Whoever observes the day, observes it for the Lord." (14.5-6a) A major question of Paul's day seemed to be that of religious ritual observance and participation in typical Roman society. Paul's answer was to engage whatever one chose to do with the full intent of encountering God in the activity. I think he's on to something here.

Thomas Keating, in The Mystery of Christ: The Liturgy as Spiritual Experience, talks about three movements in the spiritual life. First is to see God in everything. When we see God at work in the world around us, we are able to experience God's love continually being renewed for us and us being renewed in God. Second is to see everything in God. When we reach this point, we see ourselves being able to participate in the life of God whenever and wherever we are, thus being prone to the emptying of ourselves into what we do in order to give of ourselves to God. Third is the experience of divine intimacy. That's...well...divine intimacy. I think he is on to something too.

Perhaps when we find God in the depths of the ordinary, ordinary life itself becomes extraordinary. God is found in the marketplace, at the sports arena, and even (believe it or not) in church services. So, perhaps the question isn't so much whether we are more interested in watching sports or participating in ritual observance, but whether we are seeking God whenever and whereever we are.

Divine Presence

On the first Sunday of the month, our congregation joins with a UCC church on their turf for Communion. I've been thinking today about a phrase from the UCC Table liturgy which describes God as "distant as the farthest star, yet as close to us as breathing." I love that line. It definitely speaks to my experience.

Hermetic Homiletics

The plan: keep my general spiritual reflections over here, but do some sermon prep over here.

Saturday, April 02, 2005

Battlestar Galactica Finale

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OMG! What an amazing finale to the BSG season. I can't believe that they actually did what they did. There's a reason that I'm horribly addicted to this show.

For those who might be interested, there is a Battlestar Blog on Live Journal.